Tears in Anchorage this week.... What a week! It was by far the toughest week for me, as well as for the rest of our staff since our journey with YouthWorks this summer...
It was tough for a few reasons. First, since it was the 4th of July week many of our ministry sites were closed, and therefore it was difficult finding sites for our students to work at and keep them busy. And the ministry sites we did plan as backups this week didn't work out so well either... We had a low turn out for our kid's club too. Many things this week also went wrong logistically...Early in the week I, personally, already felt exhausted and ready for the week to be over... As a team, we also faced some of our most difficult conflict yet, and as a result, some of us felt discouraged, upset and frustrated...
From the beginning of the week - even on Sunday as the Pennsylvania team arrived we just felt a call to prayer for the group that God would work in their hearts in a very powerful way during the week... We prayed for this, and really felt strongly that God would for sure answer our prayers, since He had laid this so strongly on our hearts...
And even though this was our by far worst week ever, with ministry sites and kid's club not working out so well, and we felt strung out and at odds with each other, and I myself didn't even feel that connected to the students (especially early on in the week) GOD did an amazing work in the hearts of the students this week!!! He completely answered our prayers and absolutely blew us away for how He could work despite all our team struggles this week!!!! Praise be to Him! He totally works in our weaknesses! It's all about Him and not us...
The students this week were different than in prior weeks... most of them had never been on a mission trip before (unlike previous weeks), and from our perception many of them seemed uncomfortable even talking about God in a personal way or even at all...
Things changed pretty dramatically during the evening of our poverty/homelessness simulation, which we did on Wednesday night.. usually we do it Tuesday nights, but we changed it up because of the 4th of July. During the simulation we always split up into groups and walk around a 4 x 4 block area of downtown Anchorage and try to imagine what it would be like to be homeless. We pose such questions as where do I sleep, how do I find food, how would I spend my time.... We also try to talk to people in different areas where homeless people hang out and sleep and even ask them questions. Maybe it sounds like a strange activity, and I thought so too at first, but every week it's been a powerful experience for the groups, and helps them see things and understand better what a homeless person faces each day...
But it was especially powerful this week....
We as staff always accompany a group and my group started off brainstorming some answers to the questions we had posed.. Some of the people in my group really didn't seem to get it, and came up with pie in the sky ideas such as "well, they should just work harder and get a job...", or "just get over it..." They didn't seem to understand some of the limitations that face some homeless people such as mental illness, addictions (especially alcohol), the unique situation Alaskan Natives are in as a result of not being able to live as they originally did, as well as many other limitations...
Then we met a man named Philipp. Phillip is a homeless Alaskan Native, and also a veteran. We spent about 20 minutes talking to him, and as we did, other groups taking part in the simulation began to join.
Philipp did many things during that time. But mainly, he did 2 things: first, talk about his experience about being homeless and poor and difficult times he has, and second, speak the truth powerfully of his love and joy he has in his relationship with Jesus. As he spoke, tears fell from his eyes, and as he shared, tears fell also from most of our eyes.... It was pretty awesome and one thing that struck me was how he spoke about how his HOME and hope is found in God.... even though he has no real home. We had heard this same truth at the soup kitchen during devotion times (the staff there always do a devotion "mini bible study" before they serve food).
What Phillipp did during that time was completely change the group of students I was with and they began to see homeless people as individuals with great worth and very lovable... As we walked away, I couldn't believe the things I heard out of the mouths as the students who I had heard earlier assume so many negative things about homeless people... One person said he felt as though God had spoken to him, and he also said he'd never heard the gospel presented so passionately and with such conviction. One other said it made him so upset that a veteran would be living on the streets! But everyone in my group was amazed at how a homeless man could make them feel so much and move them in such a powerful way... all were disgusted at the injustice they had seen and from this point on they felt it their duty to truly make a difference in this world..
Witnessing this transformation in the students was truly MIRACULOUS... Last night on Thursday much of the same things happened. Every Thursday night we have a community picnic at a nearby park and we invite people we have met throughout the week at our ministry sites... We had a great turn out this week with about 20-30 people! Most of them were from the soup kitchen and from the day shelter, as well as a homeless family that comes to kid's club. Almost all who came were homeless and most also Alaskan Native. Our students got to have so many great conversations with their new friends and really hear about how life is for them and hear their stories... Again, this was very powerful.. they began to see and understand how some people end up homeless and how homeless people are just as valuable as they themselves are, but end up often being overlooked.... This really upset our students this week and again, their hearts began to burn for injustice...
Thursday night is actually my favorite night because of the community picnic... I'm getting to know some of the people at our ministry sites better to the point I know them by name and have been able get to know them, and it's great to spend more time with them at the picnics... I love seeing the students get to know our guests too! Many of the people I've spoken to have shared how meaningful these picnics are for them, and they are so glad to be invited! They are touched that students would come all the way from the lower 48 to serve them, and they said they hoped others in Anchorage would hear about this so that they too would have compassion for the marginalized homeless in their city....
Thursday night after the picnic we came back to get ready for club... I walked in the sanctuary to prep, and almost all the students were sitting in there with tears in their eyes as they talked about how they had been changed... Then they began to pray together and as I overheard their prayer, I was so touched. I heard such things as "God we love you" and "let us not forget the homeless and poor back home" and "let us continue to serve and love others..."
Our God is an awesome God and He reigned victoriously this past week in Anchorage!
Anyway, as my title to this blog suggests, there were a lot of tears this week in Anchorage at our YouthWorks site... I myself cried tears of frustration for team dynamics and just overall frustration, tears of sadness for this fallen world of suffering, as well as tears of joy for the work God has done in people such as Phillipp, as well as the work God did in our Pennsylvania team this week... The teens cried a lot this week, as well as our staff team... It was an emotional roller coaster in many ways...
I myself was quite homesick this week and I've missed Libby, my family and friends so much! I was so sad at the thought of having to be here for 4 more weeks!!! While I still am exhausted and overwhelmed in light of 4 more weeks of programming, I'm also in a place where I am depending more on God and trusting in Him for his goodness for the rest of the summer... At the moment I'm not finding as much joy in my job, but I know this will change... And I know God will do more awesome things! This next week we have our biggest group yet! 65 students will be here... from 3 different states! I don't know yet where they are all from, but one group is from California...
Much more happened this week, but I have to go to bed now and sleep!! Tomorrow we are actually going to spend some time sightseeing! We're going to see a glacier, and I'm SOOOO excited!!!
I pray God grants our staff team peace and rest this weekend... we are pretty tired! Please keep us in your prayers for endurance, strength, contentment, energy and freshness to our coming weeks...
I hope you are all well!
Love,
Sarah
Philippians 3:12-14
Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.